Let me catalog a bit of what I know about myself.
a) I have been separate for as long as I can remember. It was once more painful than it is today. Perhaps it was the introduction of separateness that enabled me to have memories. In examining these existential questions I can begin to see the answers of the religious philosophers and theologians, can begin to see the brilliance in their attempts to answer these questions.
b) I don't follow well, even when it is not my task to lead. I am alpha++. I lead from the front, the middle or the back. I lead with a follow me that doesn't care if you follow, or I lead with a practiced subtle guidance that is motivated by a dream of what you can be. I lead or I go my own way, in general. To follow, without comment, is the most difficult thing I am ever asked to do. A thing I fail at regularly.
c) I excel at the superficial, the level of acquaintance, the surface, the edges. A safer place perhaps from which to remain separate.
d) Enough of introspection. That road is long and goes nowhere sometimes.